Sixtieth

Sixtieth


 Gray, white, dyed, thinning…no hair
 Most of us on our own two feet
 Walker, cane, oxygen
 Married, widowed, divorced, single
 Those who traveled and
 Those who stayed home
 No one spared from sorrow

 Some hard to remember
 Others known by those blue eyes
 Or that smile

 Vietnam, heart attacks, cancer
 Ocean waves
 But yet we are here

 Together
 

 Kristin Crocker Moyer 

The Music of the Cicadas

June, 2004: the 17-year cicadas Brood X emerge from the ground in Virginia and fourteen other states and the District, as far south as Georgia and as far north as Michigan. 

I was sitting on the garden bench under the maple tree early one morning last month, when I saw my first cicada. It was walking slowly but firmly along the ground toward the maple tree. It hit a piece of large bark mulch, turned upside down, briefly bicycled its legs in the air, then righted itself, and continued its march toward the tree. “March” was the word; it seemed to have a definite idea of its goal. It reached the trunk of the tree and marched up the trunk. 

Since that morning, more and more cicadas have emerged in our yard. We seem to be in a high density area of the emergence of this brood: high density is defined as over a million cicadas per acre. We have over two and a half acres—perhaps over two million cicadas. In the back yard around the maple tree, every leaf of every shrub is covered with the shells of the cicadas, and shells litter the ground like brown confetti.

For the past month the air has been filled with cicadas flying from tree to tree, sometimes bumbling into us. The air is filled, too, with the high-pitched unearthly music of the male cicadas, pleading to the females. During the heat of the day, the sound of the cicadas rises, and I have to retreat to the house to get any peace. 

Now, at the peak of the cycle, the cicadas are busy mating; the females lay their eggs in the outer twigs of the branches, which then break off and fall to the ground. The exhausted bodies of the adult cicadas litter the paths, the patios, and the ground, like tiny revelers after Mardi Gras. The eggs will hatch, and the larvae crawl back into the ground, where they will live for the next 17 years, quietly sucking fluids from the tree roots. At least, that is how I understand their life cycle.

Bill and I are 61 and here to witness this emergence of the cicadas. Our son and our daughter are married, and our daughter has a little girl, age two.

May 31st 2021

Brood X has emerged once more, and Bill is not here to listen to their music. He died of cancer in July of 2010. My granddaughter now is 19, and my son has two children ages 10 and 7. There have been other deaths in my extended family, and other births. The rhythm of our human lives is different from these cicadas; we move to different music, but the beat is the same. 

I read in the paper that the cicadas sing up to the very moment of their death, and that the last note of their music sounds like a heart monitor fading. Now, listening to the music of the cicadas, I sing my own melody, moving forward on the great spool of time. 

Ten Years Later

The hawk flies high
In the clear blue sky
Reflected in the pool below,
A messenger I know. 

The hawk knows me, 
My husband said
Adding seeds to the feeder,
I am the feeder of birds. 

Now at the poolside,
The wind lifting its wings
The hawk knows me, 
I am the writer of words. 

April 20, 2021

Kristin Moyer

What We Learned…post March 2020

Handshakes are bad.

Hugs are worse.

Masks are good. (except by Mask-Deniers.)

“Pretty mask!” is a compliment.

PPE is essential..and there is not enough of it.

Those marks on the floor mean to stand 6 feet apart.

Hunkering down means stay at home. 

Zoom is a verb, a noun, and a pronoun. 

“You are muted” is said frequently, with a sigh.

Covid brain fog, pandemic hair, Blursday enter the language. 

High school graduations are drive by. 

College freshmen launch in their bedrooms at home.

Grocery packages are washed, and mail is quarantined.

Large weddings and funerals are dangerous. So is choir.

Dog rescue groups have empty shelters.

King Arthur Flour almost doubles its sales.

Plant seed sales hit record highs. 

Vaccines are greeted with tears of joy. 

Hugs

February 19, 2021

It has been almost a year since someone has hugged me. 
Since someone wrapped me in their arms and given me a warm hug.
A year.

And I have been missing hugs so much
remembering what it felt to be held that warmly
and feeling so sad for what I have been missing 
that the very word hug brings tears to my eyes.

But today for the first time in a year I have thought about 
the other side of the coin
of what it means to give a hug

For this past year I have not been able to receive a hug
But also not able to give a hug
A hug that says you are my friend
a hug that says I know you are sad
that change is in the wind and it is okay
that life is wonderful, congratulations!
that friends are all around
that you are not alone
All will be well
You are loved
I am here

Release

February 11, 2021

Roll up the sleeve
Second jab in the arm

Bandaid pressed down

There’ll be bluebirds over
The white cliffs of Dover

Somewhere over the rainbow 
Bluebirds fly

Zippety Do Da
 Zippety Day

My oh my what a wonderful Day

You are my sunshine

Gene Kelly and Danny Kaye
Tap dancing with us

Six feet apart

Canes tapping on tile floor
Walkers keeping time

Masks in place

My only sunshine

Out the doors and into the parking lot

We’re out of the woods we’re out of the dark

Inauguration

January 20, 2021

And so tomorrow

I will not wake up early and check my phone

for the latest terrible thing that has struck my country

Doomscrolling in the dawn of each new day

But will greet the sunrise and yawn

And go back to sleep, the cat curled by my feet

Secure that someone with knowledge

Has the wheel of this ship of state.